Heading Home

Well, I'm heading home in the morning for three glorious weeks of NO school. That's not entirely true, actually, I have an independent study class that I need to finish up, so unfortunately, I will have to work on that a little bit.

Finals were pretty rough, but hey, they're over! I just saw Narnia last night. It was awesome. I highly recommend it. I've decided I'm going to start reading the books again over the break. My roommates and I had a New Year's party last night with some of our friends. I must say it was a blast! We know some of the most incredible guys! When they got there, they took over all the cooking and cleaning. The food was delish and we were able to sit back and relax. Oh, and one of the guys and I waltzed around our kitchen. Pretty much amazing!

Thursday night I was feeling really sick, so I curled up on my couch and watched about 5 hours of Anne of Greene Gables. What a classic. I'm still waiting for my Gil. That's how it's going to be for me I think. I think the prospect of marriage will frighten me at first, and that my husband will love me first, but then I will one day come to the realization of how much he really means to me. One last thought before I go, I've continued to think about my profound post of a few days ago... I've learned that this cycle of friendships is part of the plan. It seems like some of my closest and best friends have been guys. I've realized that I can't be best friends with them forever. But one day, I will find a boy who will be my eternal best friend. I don't want my husband to think I'm cool or fun. I want him to love me for all of my imperfections, and because we are best friends, and will always be best friends. And really, that is a very comforting and wonderful thought.

Oh the Profound-ness of Finals

So, I had breakfast with a dear friend of mine this morning. It was rather nice. We had just finished a final for a class we had together, and had a few hours before either of us had to do anything else. We've been friends for almost a year now, this guy and I, and it's meant quite a lot to me to have someone to chat and laugh with. He once told me it's nice to know someone who's almost as sarcastic as he is! We've had some misunderstandings, as most friendships have, and yet, we've always made it through. Well, now he has a girlfriend, (who is a pretty awesome girl, I might add). Unfortunately, for a while, it's felt as though I've simply been left behind.
Sometimes it seems like everyone around me is moving on. Many are on missions. A couple will be leaving to go on missions. A couple are getting married, and one is even having a baby! Sometimes it's rough being the youngest person in your group of friends. I'm excited to begin the Elementary Education program next semester. I think it will finally feel like I'm actually making progress toward my career. I digress.

So, this morning over breakfast, my friend and I talked a lot about goals. My friend will be taking the DAT soon and applying to dental school. He really amazes me. He knows pretty much exactly what he wants to do with his life, and more importantly, he wants to do those things for the right reasons. He has so many dreams, and they all involve his future family. There aren't too many people out there with his focus and determination. Near the end of the conversation, he said, "Life's good. It really is." and I said, "You know, you're right, life really is good!"
As we went our separate ways, him to a final, and me off to study, it occured to me that that was probably one of the last times we'd ever sit and talk like that for so long. My first instinct was to cry. Part of me felt like I was losing my dear friend completely, and that hurt. But, as I attempted to study, thoughts kept going through my mind. And I realized some important things.

First of all, what he said is really true. Life IS good. I have no reason to be sad. We've had some really fun memories. I should look back at our old pictures and smile and laugh at our antics. It's been fun. I've learned a lot of hard lessons from him, but if I had to do it again, I wouldn't change a single thing. Most importantly, I've learned to love in spite of pain, and to forgive, even if it hurts. Our friendship has been worth it all. And really, it's not ending. I'm sure I will see him, and hopefully someday in the future, we'll be exchanging graduation, wedding, and even birth announcements.

Wow! We're all growing up so fast! I'm sure we'll all keep in touch, and keep each other posted about what's going on in our lives. There will be missions, weddings, and children. When we look back, what means the most to us will be our families, and most certainly, the friends that have brightened our days, and unconciously taught us the lessons that prepared us to be the spouses and parents we will all eventually become someday.

Wow. I think I've learned and shared something profound today! I guess that's what finals will do to you!

Joy of Joys!

So, for awhile I've been reading blogs of some friends, and they're pretty hilarious. I decided to start my own... I heard it's what the cool people do, and sometimes profound things are said, but, well, don't expect any of that from me! :-)

Let's see...

Well, finals are coming up. I think everyone knows how much that stinks!

Actually, I have to run, but I wanted to get started.... So, I'll probably write more later when I should be studying!