Past done with Winter

So, the last few days/week I have been in a really weird mood. I don't really know what is wrong, and answering questions about why I'm not myself is getting really old. I am perpetually exhausted, which, I'm learning is just part of the game as an elementary school teacher (and a teacher in training). I have fleeting moments when I want to hang out with people, but if the moment passes, I have no desire. I always have fun when I do spend time with people, but it takes a lot of will power to get me there. I'm all smiles around people, but it fades quickly when I'm not in public. I'm ridiculously busy, but my productive days are few and far between. I'm usually happy go lucky, but lately I find it takes more energy than I seem to be able to muster.

If you know me, this isn't like me. My roommates especially have noticed and ask rather often, "Are you ok? You're not yourself." Well, I've noticed too, but I honestly have no idea what, if anything is wrong. Thinking back, I felt this way last winter too. I was restless, tired, had severe cabin fever, and yet didn't really want to do anything. So, for now at least, I'll just blame it on the weather. When everything around you is icy cold and gray, and the mountains, which are usually breathtaking this time of year, are obscured by an inversion, it's hard to be happy and jolly trudging back and forth to campus.

I know a lot of things are going to change this summer, and to be honest, I'm terrified of change. I hate it with every fiber of my being. But this time, instead of everyone around me changing, and me feeling left behind, I'm changing too. I don't want to wish away the precious time that we have together, but I really wish April would come quickly. I'm ready to be able to go camping, and to be done with classes and only have to go to work, and spend the rest of the time playing and taking road trips. I need SUNLIGHT!